I Almost Killed Myself…

10:32 pm Diana Sabrain, Han Ayden, Singapore Entrepreneur, Weight Loss Motivation

Dear readers, I’m finally back.

This time STRONGER as ever. If you’ve noticed. It has been so many weeks since I’ve blogged.

NO! I didn’t mean the headline literally. Life is too short to shoot myself dead. I am a fighter, always have been and always will be.

However it has been some trying months for me with Clinical Depression and negative energies surrounding my aura. I am not ashamed of sharing this with the entire world nor telling to seek sympathy.

My business acquaintances were afraid that sharing that I’ve Clinical Depression would question my credibility on my businesses. But really question what credibility?

So you’re telling me that people who make their own dough can’t get unwell?

That’s total BS!

I believe by sharing, I would heal better. I believe by sharing I would inspire others more towards a greater good for yourselves than others.

More hands are definitely better than ONE.

I am sharing to remind you once again that everyone is human, personal trainers do get unwell and everyone goes through some though times every now and then.

Now as my journeys for these couple of months are documented with fighting clinical depression, fighting insonmia and at times it got so bad that I end up not being able to sleep for 2 days, minor isolation (I seem to withdraw from the outside world. Everytime I step out of the house to a mall, I tremble. It’s better now. :) ), feel nauseous ALL the time I keep fighting all the above and Visualize that I am already a healed and better person.

I smiled all the time, I loved all the time and I always always tell myself to be as positive as possible. The people around me have been really great support. People like Han Ayden, Paul and Meithili, Saiful Rizal, Derek, Knut and Vivien. They have been there to remind me that I am not a bad person but a good person with a problem. They have never showed me pity but instead compassion.

The one person that has helped me a lot too is Mariah Carey. Well, not her in person though I wish to meet her someday! :D

It is through her songs that I healed day by day. I truly believe songs are great outlets of healing, building positive energies in your mind, body and soul and hope of a better tomorrow.

One song by Mariah Carey that has healed me and inspired me was Hero. And today, I want to share Hero to all of you. I promise you that you’ll feel so lifted, a sense of love and gratitude and would want to replay this song over and over again in your head.

May Peace Be Upon You.

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4 Responses
  1. BK :

    Date: July 28, 2008 @ 5:58 pm

    When the night is the darkest, it means that soon the day will break. Press on! I believe that you have the power within you to overcome this challenge; I could sense your strength and fighting spirit in your writings. You are right to say, “everyone is human, personal trainers do get unwell and everyone goes through some tough times every now and then.

    I would like to share with you a quotation from Abraham Lincoln, “I have been driven many times to my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go.” And most of us know what a great man Abraham Lincoln was.

  2. Reader-SH :

    Date: August 10, 2008 @ 1:02 pm

    May God bless you and heal you. You’re strong and nothing can hold you back.

  3. Angie :

    Date: August 23, 2008 @ 11:07 pm

    Hi Diana,
    We all look forward to more updates from you!(:

  4. Lisa :

    Date: September 7, 2008 @ 4:17 am

    Having been through a major depression myself, I recognized all the things you said (not being able to sleep, fear of going out of the house, etc.) But you will come out of it. It will not last forever. I hope that you have gotten some professional help. Without the wonders of science and the new meds that are out there, I don’t know where I’d be today. They literally saved my life. I’ll say a prayer for your recovery

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